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[18:35] <Sept> [Sera was back in the detention wing again. Even though he was on a pretty good run of avoiding the inside of a cell, himself, it seemed the people he acquainted himself with had filled in for him. Only made sense, he supposed. He proceeded to check in to have a chat with the treasonous Fox members, hopefully without incident.]
[18:42] <Minaplo> [It wouldn't be long before he found Keita, sitting- as expected- alone, legs folded, arms folded, head lowered, on the bed.]
[18:46] * Sept knocked hard on the door to get his attention.
[18:47] <Minaplo> [Keita looked up. His expression brightened.]
[18:51] * Sept picked up the receiver on his end and leaned on the door, waiting for Keita.
[18:51] <Minaplo> [Keita did the same. "Hey."]
[18:54] <Sept> "Hey. Figured you'd be pretty bored down here."
[19:47] <Minaplo> ["Yeah, they don't let us have much. I appreciate it."]
[19:52] <Sept> "Yeah, I know how it is. I'd go crazy being stuck here at a time like this."-
[19:52] <Sept> "But you're doing fine, right?"
[19:53] <Minaplo> ["I'm not dead." Said Keita. "Dead means circling the drain that is Mary Caine's soul tub, so being alive is extremely good. And I have you to thank."]
[20:02] <Sept> "Heh. Right. It was a stupid thing to do. But letting her kill you would've been… I don't know. I would've hated it."
[15:26] <Minaplo> ["Yeah."-
[15:26] <Minaplo> ["There were others who probably wouldn't have cared too much." Said Keita. "And I'm sure there were plenty who wanted Tsubaki's head. Right?"]
[15:33] <Sept> "Probably still are. I paid even more of a price saving her, and that was one of the easier choices I've made in the last few days."-
[15:34] <Sept> "Doing the right thing is always easy in the moment, I guess."
[15:37] <Minaplo> ["Is it…?"-
[15:39] <Minaplo> ["Anyway, thank you." He said, leaning forward a little. "Tsubaki shouldn't die."]
[15:42] <Sept> "I know that. That's why I had to do something.-"
[15:42] <Sept> "You got a crush on her or what?"
[15:45] <Minaplo> [Keita locked up for a moment, staring at Sera. A flush of colour came to his cheeks.-
[15:45] <Minaplo> [Then he sighed. "Kind of. It's complicated."]
[15:51] <Sept> "Complicated, huh," Sera laughed. "That's fine, she can handle you."
[15:52] <Minaplo> ["… Perhaps I should explain where I feel in all this, huh?"]
[15:53] <Sept> "If you want any advice out of me, yeah."
[15:54] <Minaplo> ["Alright. Have you ever been in unrequited love, Sera?"]
[16:00] <Sept> "Hard to say. I mean, yes, but. I didn't need them to love me back? So I guess not." Sera paused for a moment, then shrugged.
[16:09] <Minaplo> ["I've spent years dealing with it." Said Keita. "Back in Eden, I was very fond of a fellow NeoSpartan- Mana Kirishima? Of course, she wasn't interested back and besides, we were all pretty young. Then she was shuffled out of the combat programme and I never really saw her after that, not until we joined up with the Federation."-
[16:13] <Minaplo> ["They placed myself and a few other Neos in Tokyo-2. Tsubaki was one of them. This is when you yourself met her- Tsubaki, the Eva pilot." He said. "You already know what she was like- affected by the Eva…"-
[16:15] <Minaplo> ["Obviously she couldn't look after herself in a school environment; she was too vulnerable. So I protected her. And I ended up falling for her, yes." Said Keita.-
[16:19] * Sept (~if.atsiakajaal-asile.85-842-311-88a|xatnyS#if.atsiakajaal-asile.85-842-311-88a|xatnyS) Quit (Quit: forward and back and then forward and back)
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[16:30] * SyntaxPhone is now known as Sept
[16:32] <Minaplo> ["Let's make one thing clear: there are people who consider unrequited love to be noble, romantic, even unselfish. I hate it. It's exceedingly miserable. Maybe you're special, or maybe you're right and you really didn't, but at the end of the day, unrequited love still wants to be requited. Until it is, you get to live in a limbo where another person has a drastic level of influence over you without realising it. If the one you love is especially warm towards you, it's like you're floating on air. If they end up being even a little cooler than usual- even if it's just because they're tired or upset themselves- well, you get to feel anxious and depressed for a few days. When they're around, you kind of wish they weren't because of all that foolishness, but when they're gone you end up missing them." He was sitting utterly straight now.]
[16:36] <Sept> "Right. That makes sense. And you learn to live with that?"
[16:43] <Minaplo> ["Yes. No? Sometimes." Said Keita. "Sometimes it burns out, but it doesn't take much to reignite it. If you're separated for a long time, that tends to help because you gradually forget."-
[16:44] <Minaplo> ["Honestly the healthiest thing is to just find someone who you can actually have a proper relationship with." He said. "I'm not so good at that."-
[16:48] <Minaplo> ["Ultimately the best way to deal with it is to resolve it, one way or another. It ends to drain away pretty quickly after that." Said Keita, tapping his left knee with his free hand idly. "So long as the situation's still unresolved, you're caught up in the unrealistic idea that the other person either loves you- and is way better at hiding it- or will grow to love you over time. You end up torn between wishing they knew because there's a chance you'll be requited, and wishing they never find out because honestly, no, they're not into you. With Tsubaki that was definitely a problem because she had no clue what was going on, so there was no way for a relationship to work there without a rubbish power imbalance."-
[16:51] <Minaplo> ["Of course that all just perpetuates the situation, which is also unfair on those around you. Firstly, you become impossible to live around. Secondly, it's unfair on the person you love, because either they don't know you feel like this and so have everything they do interpreted as a signal they never intended to send… Or they do know but can't call you out because you cloak it all in innocuous, socially acceptable ways."-
[16:52] <Minaplo> ["Tsubaki's spent her whole life around people who want certain things from her, and she doesn't need my shit too."]
[16:56] * Sept paused for a moment, looking at Keita flatly through the door.
[16:57] <Minaplo> ["What?"]
[16:58] <Sept> "I mean, you're right. If your shit is going to be you thinking you know what she needs, she has absolutely zero need of your shit."-
[16:59] <Sept> "But she knows she needs someone to have a normal fucking relationship with, and that someone sure isn't me most of the time."
[17:05] <Minaplo> ["I don't know if that's really me either. Besides, I don't think she's going to be interested in me whatsoever, so count me out."-
[17:05] <Minaplo> ["… Are you thinking what I am?"]
[17:12] <Sept> "Obviously not. Have you tried talking to her? She's far sharper than you give her credit for."
[17:12] <Minaplo> ["Talking to her about what?"]
[17:20] <Sept> "Just talking to her! She's been lonely and bored out of her mind for months!"
[17:21] <Minaplo> ["I mean… Yeah, sometimes I have." Said Keita, running a hand through his hair.]
[17:24] <Sept> "And how's that been?"
[17:29] <Minaplo> ["Alright, I suppose. A little off-guard."]
[17:37] <Sept> "I'm going to be honest, I haven't heard anything that sounds like a problem yet."
[17:41] <Minaplo> [Keita gave him a flat look.]
[17:47] <Sept> "All you've talked about is why you don't want to do the thing you want to do and could not possibly be a bad thing!"
[17:52] <Minaplo> ["What?" Keita frowned. "No. I've talked about why unrequited love is miserable."]
[17:54] <Sept> "You sounded a lot like you'd given up!"
[17:56] <Minaplo> ["Given up… Pursuing Tsubaki?"]
[18:05] <Sept> "Okay, look. You said she wouldn't be interested in you. So what are you gonna do now?"
[18:07] <Minaplo> ["Focus on fighting. Move on? Try other people?"]
[18:12] <Sept> "But you can just talk to her."
[18:15] <Minaplo> ["Sure." Said Keita. "Which I do."]
[18:24] <Sept> "So she's gonna figure out how you feel about her sooner or later if you don't tell her."
[18:30] <Minaplo> ["She probably already does." Said Keita. "I wasn't intending on telling her at all, though."]
[18:40] <Sept> "But -why-?"
[18:43] <Minaplo> ["What's the point of telling her?" Said Keita. "She's not interested in me. She's not going to become interested. The sooner I let all this blow over and focus on other things, the sooner I can be a supportive friend with a clean conscience."]
[18:53] <Sept> "Fucking- what. That makes no sense! That can't be how that works!"
[18:57] <Minaplo> [Keita ran a hand across his face. "Alright. Lay out your plan. Detailed."]
[19:17] <Sept> "Alright? You go talk to her, ask her out, she says yes or no. You talk about your feelings when you stand nothing to lose. It's not… it's just not that big a deal. You both have guaranteed lives ahead of you. Don't leave bullshit like this behind you."-
[19:21] <Sept> "I know my track record with things like this, but I'm pretty fucking sure about this."
[19:23] <Minaplo> [Keita let out a low grumble.-
[19:23] <Minaplo> ["I think this is a poor play, but fine."]
[19:29] <Sept> "Sure. Your life, your call. Just seems like a stupid regret."
[19:38] <Minaplo> ["It's not going to be a regret." Said Keita patiently. "That's not how it works."]
[19:40] <Sept> "Gotcha. And I'm biased because I want Tsubaki to have more close friends."
[19:40] <Minaplo> ["So do I." Said Keita. "And I'm happy to be one of them."]
[19:51] <Sept> "Right, but… Yeah, no, I don't think we're gonna go anywhere with this. You should get a second opinion, obviously."
[19:27] <Minaplo> [Keita sighed.-
[19:27] <Minaplo> ["No, no. You're probably right. I should try to trust your opinion more."]
[19:35] <Sept> "I don't know if you should. I don't trust my opinions. Especially not about things like this."
[19:36] <Minaplo> ["Why not?"]
[19:44] <Sept> "Well. Right. My track record with people isn't great. I'm better with it now, like I am with everything. But more than that, 'what I think' is just plain useless to me a lot of the time."-
[19:47] <Sept> "There're things that I need to happen, and things that have to be done to make those things happen. It's a lot easier to think backwards from a clear goal than to replan everything whenever something… happened to me."-
[19:48] * Sept waved his hand dismissively, glancing down the hall. "But that's boring. We should talk about something that's not."
[19:49] <Minaplo> ["Okay."]
[19:56] <Sept> "Wanna talk about what happened on the Dorian?"
[19:56] <Minaplo> ["Alright."]
[20:00] <Sept> "Did you have to deal with the Virus Guard, or were you isolated somewhere else most of the time?"
[20:07] <Minaplo> ["Mostly isolated."]
[20:10] <Sept> "And then just brought out to pilot?"
[20:13] <Minaplo> ["Yes."]
[20:17] <Sept> "So… what's going through your mind in that situation?"
[20:20] <Minaplo> ["Not a lot. The control sort of wraps you up in a cloud." Said Keita. "You don't really feel much in the way of emotion, just a sort of mindless calm. You're barely aware of what's going on."]
[20:23] <Sept> "Got it. Sorry you had to go through all that."
[20:26] <Minaplo> ["It wasn't that bad in the end. I'm still alive."]
[20:28] <Sept> "Mm. Anything for another day, huh?"
[20:29] <Minaplo> ["Alive and whole, yes."]
[20:35] * Sept kept quiet for a little while. "What about after that next day? Any plans?"
(12:41:01) Minaplo: [He was eyeing Sera cautiously now. "Are you gonna go all career guidance counselor on me?"]
(12:46:54) Sept: "No. I hated that guy," Sera said without hesitating. "I wanna know how you guys think about your future. Is there something Neospartans have in common, or is it entirely individual. You're just all so… damn well-adjusted, you know?"
(12:49:48) Minaplo: ["Are we…?"]
(12:52:03) Sept: "Sure. Considering what you've been through, and in general. I still admire all of you."
(13:11:34) Minaplo: ["I think we hide it pretty well."]
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(13:18:41) Sept: "Mm. Maybe. Guess we'll find out."
(13:20:40) Minaplo: ["Mmm. What do you admire about us?"]
(13:31:46) Sept: "I guess… being able to find some kind of meaning, and camaraderie and life despite everything? I suppose that's not different from a lot of soldiers and shitty childhoods, but I know what happened to you. So it's only natural I can appreciate your efforts more?"
(14:24:10) Minaplo: ["Well… Thanks, Sera."-
(14:24:17) Minaplo: ["I appreciate you too, you know."]
(14:26:22) Sept: "Thanks. I can't un-save your life, so you don't need to worry, either."
(14:43:01) Minaplo: ["Hah, thanks."]
(14:54:28) Sept: Another pause. "Well, I think I should get going. We'll talk more when we get back to, you know, business as usual?"
(15:04:37) Minaplo: ["Sure. Take care of yourself. Lobby for me."]
(15:06:39) Sept: "Will do. I'll make sure she knows you're husband material."
(15:22:46) Minaplo: ["Please." He said flatly.]
(15:24:34) Sept: "Yeah, yeah," Sera said, smiling. "Take care."
(15:30:42) Minaplo: ["You too."]

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