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[01:55] <Sept> This part of the cycle again. Sera was trapped in that sterile room, finding himself forced to meditate on past events, and to find some way to unwind in that barren new environment..
[03:00] <Yanmei> There was a knock at the door.
[03:01] <Sept> A long pause before any reply came. "Come in."
[03:05] <Yanmei> So the door was opened by Zhang Yanmei in her school uniform, an increasingly rare sight even around these parts. She sort of stood there quietly for a moment, and then moved into the room properly, shutting the door behind her for privacy.
[03:07] * Sept managed a little smile at that. "Hello, Yanmei."
[03:10] <Yanmei> "De Pteres." She didn't take a seat. Instead, she stared at him with a serious expression. "How are you feeling?"
[03:12] <Sept> "Tired," he just said. "And you?"
[03:19] <Yanmei> "…I guess I'm pretty tired too," she said. For a minute it looked as if she might sit down after all, but she changed her mind, setting a hand on her hip. "You're not missing much on the outside? Training drills and preparations for the next fight, and the usual grind at school."
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[03:26] <Sept> "I know that by now. I'm in no hurry to get out."
[03:28] <Yanmei> "Oh?" Surprise flickered across her face, but it was a passing emotion. That seriousness from before asserted itself quickly again. -
[03:29] <Yanmei> "Um. Listen, okay?"
[03:32] <Sept> "…" Sera didn't take his eyes off Yanmei's.
[03:41] <Yanmei> "I came here because…" She found herself matching his gaze, like it or not, her dark eyes against his blues. "W-what happened before. That was my fault. I'm not expecting forgiveness, but since something really tragic happened, it's no good letting feelings fester between us because of it without, ah…" -
[03:45] <Yanmei> She shook her head, and frowned. The concise path was probably the best. "I came here so that you can let me have it, okay? Yell or scream or you can even hit me a few times if you want. No choking though, please?" She rubbed her throat breifly as if unnerved by soem association to that."
[03:46] <Yanmei> ^some
[03:46] <Yanmei> ^that.
[03:47] <Sept> ^briefly
[03:48] <Sept> "You want me to do that?"
[03:49] <Yanmei> "Not especially? But I won't hide from it either."
[03:52] <Sept> A hint of aggression flashed across his face. "Then no. You'll get nothing out of me."
[03:56] <Yanmei> "…?" Yanmei scrutinized him a moment. "There's nothing you want to get off your chest?"
[03:59] <Sept> "My chest is fine. How's yours?"
[04:09] <Yanmei> "…" Yanmei glanced away. "I'm sure you've noticed, but I'm not very good at this," she confessed. "I apologize if I've made things worse."
[04:12] <Sept> "You haven't. You could destroy everything I have, and nothing would change between us. And I could die for you a dozen more times and still never once forget what you've done.-"
[04:13] <Sept> "But maybe, just maybe, if she lives through this… She'll give you the satisfaction of having your teeth kicked in."
[04:30] <Yanmei> "I think you're confusing whose satisfaction it would be. Atonement doesn't work that way. But fine."
[04:35] <Sept> "I think you want to resolve everything quickly more than I. I think you need something to blame, to justify your fears."
[04:41] * Yanmei stared. "Yes and no. I admit to wanting this out in the open quickly. What fears are you talking about?"
[04:50] <Sept> "That someone will come to take him away from you. That others might not think or fight for their love the way you do, meaning you've hurt them, denied them that very feeling you treasure in protecting what you have. I think you -needed- adversity, a grand conspiracy against you, to even have the courage to tell him how you really felt."
[05:07] * Yanmei kept staring. "You're not wrong? You are, however, simplfying things a -lot-. There is also a sense of self wrapped up in those worries that's beyond what you've implied. I fought for him, but I fought for myself, too. Do you think that's weird?"
[10:45] * Sept shut up for a while, eyes slowly drifting downward as he thought. "No," he finally said, more quietly. "That's not weird at all, Yanmei. And it's probably just what Elisha wanted." The last part wasn't particularly emphasised in any direction.
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[10:54] <Yanmei> Suspicion flickered to life in her eyes. Just what the hell did that mean? "At first, it was the same thing as looking into his situation and seeing myself standing there too. Sometimes the same thing happens with the grieving, and it causes…" she frowned to herself and tried to move on. "I'm a failure of a protector. So I can't bring myself to find the act of protecting someone inherently pleasurable."
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[11:01] <Sept> "But you keep trying. If you could just let others protect you, the both of you…"
[11:08] <Yanmei> "Heh. It's painfully clear that this organization can't really protect us from a lot of things. If I keep getting more powerful, then maybe I could do it myself."
[11:11] <Sept> "I meant us. We can protect each other, at least. Don't you agree?"
[11:18] <Yanmei> "…" She glanced away. "Why do you want to so badly? Getting thrown into something dangerous just because I fall short at something… Why wouldn't you hate me for putting you in a situation like that?"
[11:26] <Sept> "Because I -can-. I've seen our place, Yanmei. And we won't make it to the end if we don't do absolutely everything we can. The closer I am to all of you, the simpler it is for me to help you." He looked her in the eyes and, voice slightly wavering, continued. "Why wouldn't I hate you? Because you matter. To me and the world."
[11:36] <Yanmei> "Our place," she echoed, staring back. She averted her eyes again and shook her head. "I don't get it. Well, I sort of do? But…" she frowned. "I think this protection thing should be less one-sided, don't you?"
[11:50] <Sept> "…well, yes. There has to be trust. But is it possible for that to work for us, deeply enough? I… thought once that I'd proven myself, but I haven't been so sure about it…"
[11:58] <Yanmei> "Oh?" she frowned a little. "You've tried to do a lot. Bear with me, though? Trust is something that's been hard lately, but I can try."
[12:09] <Sept> "I remember I used to be afraid I'd step on people's toes, with you and Aline both having your relationships. I didn't really know how I felt about you, or them, but now… Could we, maybe, agree that won't be a problem?"
[12:15] <Yanmei> "Of course. Thank you." She nodded "If I'm doing stuff that makes you uncomfortable with that, please tell me."
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[12:22] <Sept> "…mmh. I should tell you, then, what you did. So you'll understand."
[12:24] <Yanmei> "Ah…?"
[12:27] <Sept> "Viviane wasn't a threat to us anymore. She was going to leave when you shot her."
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[12:37] <Yanmei> "…" Yanmei didn't say anything. Her eyes widened slowly, bit by bit, as a new horror flooded them.
[12:45] * Sept allowed her a moment. But only a moment. "She was going to get away and find a real life, one that Gehirn and NERV had promised her but could never give. She couldn't ever come back because of what they did and what -we- did, so I got her to escape, Yanmei. I'd tried ever since Almeria, and I finally convinced her."
[12:47] <Yanmei> "I… I see," she said with difficulty.
[12:48] <Sept> "And now they won't tell me anything."
[12:50] <Yanmei> "Nothing?"
[12:53] <Sept> "That's what I said. News travels to these rooms poorly."
[12:54] <Yanmei> "Do you want me to investigate?"
[12:56] <Sept> "Yes. If she's still alive… talk to her. I can understand them keeping her away from me, unfortunately."
[12:57] <Yanmei> "Any messages you want to send to her?"
[13:00] * Sept looked at the Geofront landscape behind the window for a moment. "No."-
[13:00] <Sept> "She deserved that new life, Yanmei."
[13:02] <Yanmei> "I don't doubt it," she muttered.
[13:15] <Sept> "It's good that we understand each other. Bring me news soon."
[13:17] * Yanmei regarded him silently for a moment more, and then turned for the exit. "I am sorry." Her last words before the door opened and closed.

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