Mingzhu S Family

06[00:10] * Yanmei primped the entire way to her mother's room. -
01[00:14] <Yanmei> A little time had passed since she had parted ways with Liu Lin and passed Lizzie off into Isaiah's care for the evening. She had changed outfits yet again - no longer was she in her stuffy uniform. Now the same elegant cheongsam that she had worn to Rei's trial hugged her body. -
01[00:16] <Yanmei> In one hand was a small parcel wrapped with simple white paper. The other hand reached out to ring the buzzer by the door when she got close enough to it.
[00:24] <@Minaplo> ["Enter."]
06[00:25] * Yanmei sucked in a very deep breath, and then did just that, smiling. "Hi!"
[00:39] <@Minaplo> [Mingzhu was sitting at a table- a dining table, to be exact, with a lovely gold-cloth tablecloth laid over it. She smiled a little as Yanmei entered. "Hello, Blossom."]
01[00:40] <Yanmei> "M-mom! Did you have a good rest?" She glanced around the room even as she came closer. No Ayanamis hiding about?
[00:41] <@Minaplo> [Well…-
[00:41] <@Minaplo> [There were some on the roof. Not actual Ayanamis, of course, but a fresco of winged Ayanamis dressed in sheer gossamer robes (or less) flying hagiographically around a deified Silas Caine…-
[00:42] <@Minaplo> ["I did, thank you for asking. The lodgings here are rather extravagant…"]
01[00:45] <Yanmei> "It takes some getting used to," she chuckled, trying not to look up above them now or ever again. She paused in front of the table, still standing, and then extended her box with both hands. "F-for you. I'm sorry about earlier."
[00:49] <@Minaplo> [Mingzhu's right eyebrow rose, and she leaned forward, taking it and unwrapping it.]
01[00:51] <Yanmei> A small box of high quality chocolates! The name of the brand was spelled out on the lid in gold, wavy cursive.
03[00:59] * Zack is now known as Gerard
[01:00] <@Minaplo> ["Ah. Thank you very much." She said with a smile.]
06[01:03] * Yanmei beamed back and sat down across from her, taking the smile to mean that she wasn't quite so annoyed anymore. -
01[01:07] <Yanmei> "I can't remember the last time we had a meal like this? Just the two of us…"
[01:12] <@Minaplo> ["It would have been a long time ago."]
01[01:15] <Yanmei> "That may be true…" her smile started to fade just a little, but it came back, quickly. "We can have dinner again tomorrow, right?"
[01:28] <@Minaplo> ["I think so."]
06[01:30] * Yanmei seemed even happier at that. "I'm glad you're here, Mom."
[01:31] <@Minaplo> ["So am I. How are you doing, then? You seem to have had…"-
[01:31] <@Minaplo> ["… A poor time of things." She said eventually.]
01[01:49] <Yanmei> "Heh. Well." She glanced aside. "It's nothing compared to the next few weeks? A lot of things are about to happen…"
[01:49] <@Minaplo> ["Oh?"]
01[01:53] <Yanmei> "Caine won't stay quiet any longer now that the rampaging Angel is gone. She'll try to do something, and in the process, she'll force our hand. There's a rebellion in the works."
[02:03] <@Minaplo> ["And you're part of that."]
06[02:06] * Yanmei looked guilty now. Her eyes sank toward the gleaming tablecloth. "A big part? They needed a figurehead to pull everyone - allies and crew - together."
[02:08] <@Minaplo> ["… And you're that figurehead?" Her eyes widened in surprise.]
01[02:15] <Yanmei> "Presidents Linden and Mazarin were able stir up a lot of protest against Caine when she was holding me and the other Eva pilots in the Synfront? They're capitalizing on that same resistance, in a way. It makes sense?" She gave her a half-smile.
[02:26] <@Minaplo> ["Ah, so this is more than just NERV's rebellion, then. This is some kind of… New LN?"]
01[02:31] <Yanmei> The rest of her smile started to collapse in on itself. "She's too powerful now. There's no other way to oppose her successfully."
[02:32] <@Minaplo> ["I see. And you would be the head of this new LN?"]
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06[02:34] * Yanmei scrutinized her carefully before making her reply in the form of a quiet nod.
[02:36] <@Minaplo> ["… Does it have a name, this rebellion?"]
01[02:39] <Yanmei> "United Earth Federation is what we're going with for now. But Mom… you can't mention this to anyone, ok? Not even Major Liu."
[02:39] <@Minaplo> ["W-Why not?!" Her neutral expression broke suddenly, and she seemed utterly taken aback.]
01[02:46] <Yanmei> "Because the rebellion hasn't happened yet? If news about it gets leaked early, then Caine will look justified when she attacks us. Even worse, she'll try to block us from reaching out to allies, or will just destroy us before we get a chance to."
[02:47] <@Minaplo> ["You don't trust Major Liu?"]
01[02:50] <Yanmei> "O-of course I do! She's the best! Really amazing and noble~ But I think it's better to keep it quiet just in general."
[02:52] <@Minaplo> [Mingzhu looked disapproving. "My daughter chosen to lead a rebellion that might end with her becoming the leader of the entire world, and I'm not even allowed to boast about it."]
01[02:54] <Yanmei> "You can boast about it to President Mazarin," Yanmei suggested hopefully. "He already knows."
[00:24] <Minaplo> ["But he already knows." Said Mingzhu. "I should talk to Mr. Mazarin soon, though. He was very supportive during your capture…"]
01[00:27] <Yanmei> "You're in luck? His room isn't far from here. Did you… hear about the attack on the Palais?"
[00:28] <Minaplo> ["I did, yes." She frowned.]
01[00:31] <Yanmei> "He and his little daughter will be staying with us for a while. De Orleans' loved ones will too." She hid her own frown.
[00:33] <Minaplo> ["I see. De Orleans was taken, wasn't he?"]
01[00:38] <Yanmei> "Yes, he was. I've been trying to think of how to get to him, but nothing seems like it would work out?"
[00:44] <Minaplo> ["Why?"]
01[00:48] <Yanmei> "Because I don't know where he's been taken, or if Caine has already…" she pressed her lips together for a few moments. "You know what happened to Washington, yes?"
[00:48] <Minaplo> ["I do."]
01[00:50] <Yanmei> "She'll do the same to him. I'm sure she already has his horrible committee replacement ready. She might even resort to cloning this time?"
[00:54] <Minaplo> ["I see." She said neutrally.]
01[00:59] <Yanmei> "Mazarin told me that I should just give up on it. It's… unusually heartless of him?"
[01:05] <Minaplo> ["I agree with him."]
01[01:07] <Yanmei> "Ehh? But why?"
[01:12] <Minaplo> ["Why should I care about the welfare of any member of Seele?"]
01[01:13] <Yanmei> "He's different! He helped me against Caine many times…"
[01:16] <Minaplo> ["Did he help at any time when it counted?"]
01[01:20] <Yanmei> "He visited me in the Synfront and gave me information? And he always let me know what was happening in the HIC."
[01:23] <Minaplo> ["And was he able to free you from the Synfront?"]
01[01:26] <Yanmei> "By himself? No, there was no way that he could."
[01:26] <Minaplo> ["And was he able to tell you that the entire setup was a trap in the first place?"]
01[01:28] <Yanmei> "He would have if he had been able to," she said stubbornly.
[01:30] <Minaplo> ["And what about the Solomon Primes and the Dysangelions? Did he inform you of their existence?"]
01[01:32] <Yanmei> "He probably didn't know about them? She managed to keep it a secret from everyone else. If she mistrusted him, she probably kept him in the dark too."
[01:33] <Minaplo> ["And what about EVA-22?"]
01[01:34] <Yanmei> "… it has to be the same thing."
[01:35] <Minaplo> ["And what about the Angel emissary sent to communicate with the UN?"]
01[01:36] <Yanmei> "He did explain that to me! He had nothing to do with what happened back then. It was all Caine's doing."
[01:37] <Minaplo> ["So let's see," Said Mingzhu, her tone dark, "If I have the facts straight."-
[01:40] <Minaplo> ["Gilles de Orleans, one of the most resourceful, influential and powerful men in the world- reputed to be second only to Caine herself in power in the UN- a man who built up his resources at the same time as Caine's own father did, who understands the global situation like the back of his hand, who has lived and breathed it for his entire life…"-
[01:41] <Minaplo> ["You are saying that Mary Caine managed to keep these secrets from him. Secrets that technicians in the Synfront were probably aware of months ago. Secrets that would require planning and ability beyond just her own single capacity."-
[01:41] <Minaplo> ["Constantly. Without fail."]
01[01:42] <Yanmei> "…"
[01:43] <Minaplo> ["The simplest solution? He's been playing you from the moment you met. And you fell for it, because you were a bright, but inexperienced teenaged girl who desperately needed powerful allies, and he gave you exactly what you wanted, and you were so overjoyed that you never stopped to question whether his help really mattered, despite his seeming power."]
01[01:47] <Yanmei> "Even if I hadn't picked it up at the beginning, eventually, I would have? He's good, but he's not impenitrable. And I'm not that inexperienced these days…"
[01:53] <Minaplo> ["Yanmei. Simply admit it."]
01[01:57] <Yanmei> "He was my friend, Mom. You don't understand…"
[01:59] <Minaplo> ["He was using you."]
01[02:07] <Yanmei> "He wasn't!" She gripped the sides of her seat with her fingertips. "He gained literally no benefits by getting on my good side. What on earth was his incentive?"
[02:10] <Minaplo> ["Knowledge. Awareness. No doubt he gathered information on you, your psychological profile, your desires, what you held dear- and passed it on to Caine."]
01[02:16] <Yanmei> "As opposed to Caine accessing that through her spies at NERV? Or using any of her other experts?"
[02:17] <Minaplo> ["But how many of those spies could influence you directly? Shape the way you acted? Give you advice, making you unwittingly act in a way that was easy for him to predict and control?"]
01[02:23] <Yanmei> "…" Yanmei shook her head desperately. "Mom, please…"
[02:27] <Minaplo> ["…" Mingzhu sighed. "Fine. I won't bother, then."]
01[02:37] <Yanmei> "I'm sorry," she muttered, slumping back in her chair a little. The full impact of what she had done sank in slowly and with its fair share of dismay. She'd started yet -another- argument with her…
[02:41] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu didn't respond at first. A few moments of painful silence passed.-
[02:41] <Minaplo> [Finally, Mingzhu shook her head slowly and smiled a little. "Why don't we order dinner?"]
01[02:45] <Yanmei> "Right. Of course?" she tried hard to smile back. "T-the chefs tend to excel at Western meals, of course."
[02:46] <Minaplo> ["Do you prefer Western? I am sure they could probably do Chinese if we wanted."]
01[02:48] <Yanmei> "I'll be happy with whichever you prefer? You just had a long trip here, after all…"
[23:27] <Minaplo> ["Let's go with Southern Chinese, then."]
06[23:28] * Yanmei nodded happily. "Um. Is this is your first time eating on board this ship?"
[23:39] <Minaplo> ["It is, yes."]
01[23:44] <Yanmei> "The servers here are a little… unconventional?" she warned, activating the intraship comm system so that they could make their orders directly to the kitchen.
[23:55] <Minaplo> ["Oh?"]
Session Time: Wed Nov 13 00:00:00 2013
01[00:01] <Yanmei> "You'll see," she murmured, and made her order for vegetables with oyster sauce.
[00:10] <Minaplo> [And Mingzhu ordered several dishes, medium sized portions of stewed beef brisket, beef chou fun and winter melon soup.-
[00:11] <Minaplo> ["This entire place seems unconventional." Said Mingzhu, glancing up at the fresco on the roof.]
01[00:14] <Yanmei> "It was taken from the LN. It's so futuristic that the ship itself actively keeps us from redecorating?"
[00:18] <Minaplo> ["How?"]
01[00:23] <Yanmei> "I'm not really sure? You can remove certain things, like hanging paintings and statues, but if you try to deface or paint over the artwork on the walls, it's like… it all self-repairs overnight. If you try to rearrange the furniture, the same thing happens. It will eventually default back to its original position." -
01[00:25] <Yanmei> "We know it's some kind of program that's doing it, but we never figured out how to shut it off?" She smiled wryly. "It's almost like we're being haunted by the previous owners of the ship."
[00:27] <Minaplo> ["That seems frivolous in the extreme?"]
01[00:30] <Yanmei> "It really does," she chuckled. "But maybe it's fitting, given what we're about to attempt against the UN." -
01[00:31] <Yanmei> She gave her a shy look. "You know, I was worried that you wouldn't approve?"
[00:32] <Minaplo> ["Of rebellion?"]
01[00:32] <Yanmei> "Yeah… Rebelling against the UN in particular."
[00:34] <Minaplo> ["I see…."]
01[00:39] <Yanmei> "…" -
01[00:40] <Yanmei> That shyness turned much more somber now. "I'm sorry," she added. "About the Beijing Branch."
[00:41] <Minaplo> ["I won't forgive them for taking it from me." She replied, her voice not… Angry, but nevertheless intense.]
06[00:46] * Yanmei nodded feverishly. "Let's get revenge together!" she chimed in.
[00:54] <Minaplo> ["If we should act against them, it should be because they have acted injustly, not for our own vengeful desires."]
01[00:59] <Yanmei> "O-of course. That's important too?" She felt her cheeks warm up. That sounded like something Major Liu would say.
03[01:03] * Zack is now known as Gerard
[01:10] <Minaplo> [Time passed, and eventually dinner would arrive, carried on the hands of several holographic Brother Caines. They swooped in, laying down the dishes- which smelled incredible, and were clearly deliciously hot- and left.-
[01:10] <Minaplo> [But Mingzhu had stiffed at their approach, and she didn't truly relax until they were well and truly gone.]
06[01:15] * Yanmei had silently fretted a little, all the while trying to cover it up with cheerful conversation. "Rei Ayanami and Isaiah have been inseperable lately. Maybe later we can go say hello to them? Ah… and you should meet Mr. Isha, too." -
01[01:17] <Yanmei> The door closed behind the Brothers, and the tension began to run out of her as well. She picked up her chopsticks eagerly.
[01:19] <Minaplo> ["Of course."-
[01:19] <Minaplo> ["So how has Isaiah been recently, then?"]
01[01:22] <Yanmei> "He's… improving. He was injured badly when we were taken in the Synfront battle, but he better now. Physically."
[01:23] <Minaplo> ["Mentally?"]
01[01:26] <Yanmei> The chopsticks lowered slightly, a bit of food still gripped between them. "He lost his father recently…"
[01:26] <Minaplo> ["I see… I'm sorry for him."]
06[01:28] * Yanmei nodded. "He has his reasons for being with Rei lately, and I think that's one of them. She's a great comfort to him, so…"
[01:28] <Minaplo> ["Ah, I see…"-
[01:28] <Minaplo> ["Does that bother you?"]
01[01:31] <Yanmei> "I trust them." She set her face in a firm smile.
[01:32] <Minaplo> [A bit of surprise on Mingzhu's face.]
01[01:37] <Yanmei> "Rei has her own boyfriend," she informed her, sitting up straight. "Plus, she was in a similar situation in December? So she must relate."
[01:38] <Minaplo> ["Hm, I see." Mingzhu contemplated this, then began to tuck into her brisket.-
[01:39] <Minaplo> [It was obvious, despite her poise and self-control, that she was deeply famished- it took a few minutes for her to pause. With a slightly embarrassed cough she took a napkin and wiped some juice off of her chin.]
06[01:43] * Yanmei seemed blind to the awkward aspects of this, her eyes bright with adoration. She took advantage of the pause in conversation to pour them each a glass of water, setting Mingzhu's right by her plate. -
01[01:48] <Yanmei> "Rei was recently on trial, you know," she began, and delved into quick a description of how that played out, playing up Isha's role significantly. "He's been like… hm. Like more of an uncle than a lawyer, almost."
[02:03] <Minaplo> ["I see! That's interesting… A young man?"]
01[02:04] <Yanmei> "Young…ish? Mid-thirties, I think?"
[02:04] <Minaplo> ["I see… I'll have to pay him a visit and thank him for his help."]
06[02:08] * Yanmei started to smile again, but Lin's words came whirling back to her. "Mom?"
[02:09] <Minaplo> ["Yes?"]
01[02:09] <Yanmei> "Do you… um…" She stirred her vegetables, concentrating hard on trying to find the right words.
[02:10] <Minaplo> ["Out with it, blossom."]
01[02:13] <Yanmei> "R-right. That is… do you… still think about Dad a lot?"
[02:14] <Minaplo> ["I do." She smiled sadly. "Not a day goes by where I don't. I think that's natural for widows and widowers."]
06[02:17] * Yanmei nodded. There was hint of something on her face. Relief? Something more troubled? At least, she wasn't staring holes into her plate now. -
01[02:18] <Yanmei> "If there was another guy you ended up liking… like, would you tell me?"
[02:19] <Minaplo> ["You're worried about me finding someone else."]
01[02:21] <Yanmei> "…" She was suddenly staring down at her plate again.
[02:30] <Minaplo> ["If I did begin meeting with someone, I would inform you, of course."]
01[02:32] <Yanmei> "Oh," she said awkwardly, and cleared her throat, and smiled. "I'm glad~~"
[02:34] <Minaplo> ["But you understand that I would have the final say in whoever I met with."]
01[02:36] <Yanmei> "W-well, yes, but…" Her face was on fire. Had Major Liu told about their conversation? "He has to be a good upstanding person?"
[02:37] <Minaplo> ["Why?"]
01[02:41] <Yanmei> "B-because you deserve someone who's good for you? Not someone who will hurt you."
[02:44] <Minaplo> ["Maybe I want someone a little dangerous, a little rough around the edges." Said Mingzhu, her tone playfully serious.]
06[02:48] * Yanmei held back a grimace, thinking of her trusty Bolter. "If he makes you upset, I won't take kindly to him," she said primly.
[02:50] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu chuckled. "You really are a mother. Poor Elizabeth is going to have trouble when she grows up."]
01[02:53] <Yanmei> The laughter startled her, but she tried to play it off, smoothing down her lap napkin. "W-what do you mean 'poor Elizabeth'? It's for her own good? I won't have her dating sketchy losers."
[02:54] <Minaplo> ["Like Mr. Shao Liwei?"]
01[02:56] <Yanmei> "Liwei wasn't… I mean, he was, but…" She knew about his reputation? Crap, crap crap… "…that's different?"
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[03:06] <Minaplo|Ping> ["Hiding him from me as well…"]
01[03:14] <Yanmei> "You have it all wrong? We were just. Um…" She suddenly started paying special attention to her vegetables, hastily chomping down on them.
[03:14] <Minaplo|Ping> ["Did you sleep with him, Blossom?" She asked sternly.]
[22:39] * Yanmei prompted began to choke and cough, reaching frantically for her glass of water.
[22:39] <Yanmei> ^promptly
[22:40] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu simply folded her hands together and stared. Stared.]
[22:43] <Yanmei> The water bought Yanmei an extra minute or two, at least. A minute of sweating and floundering. At last, she set her glass back down on the table. -
[22:46] <Yanmei> The -staring-. It was inescapable. "We. Experimented?" she managed.
[22:49] <Minaplo> ["You experimented." Repeated Mingzhu darkly.]
[22:59] <Yanmei> "W-we didn't go too far, if that's what you're thinking," she added desperately. Oh god, anything to make her stop looking at her like that. "We were too young and were focusing too much on schoolwork and track for… for that."
[13:52] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu stared.-
[13:54] <Minaplo> [And then finally shook her head. "I suppose it's only natural for young teenagers going through puberty to be interested in the opposite sex." She said, her tone still mildly disapproving. "But… There is one thing I can approve of?"]
[13:55] <Yanmei> "Th-there is?"
[13:56] <Minaplo> ["I think if I were in your shoes, I would be very happy to lose my virginity to Mr. Gabriel-Wei~" She was chuckling-giggling a little now. The scolding had passed- she was obviously teasing Yanmei now.]
[14:00] <Yanmei> "Mom!" She was blushing furiously now. "Y-your dinner getting cold? Let's hurry and eat."
[14:03] <Minaplo> ["Hmph~"-
[14:03] <Minaplo> [She ate a little more, then shook her head. "So what you really want is for me to talk to you before I make an romantic plans. That's the crux of the matter, right?"]
[14:08] <Yanmei> "Yeah." She slowed down with her own meal. "You're, uh. Not… seeing anyone right now?"
[14:12] <Minaplo> ["No, but that might change depending on how handsome your Mr. Misra is…"]
[14:18] <Yanmei> "Hmph. …maybe we should postpone that visit."
[14:19] <Minaplo> ["What? Isn't Mr. Misra an upstanding fellow?"]
[14:26] <Yanmei> "I actually hear he has a dark side? Like gambling. And he left a string of broken hearts back in Melbourne." She tossed her hair. "I don't think he's suitable."
[14:31] <Minaplo> ["What about… President Mazarin?"]
[14:32] <Yanmei> "He sends assassins after people?"
[14:32] <Minaplo> ["I like him even more, now…"]
[14:32] <Yanmei> "W-what?!"
[14:33] <Minaplo> ["A handsome, dignified man who knows when threads ought to be removed… I can admire that problem-solving attitude."]
[14:39] <Yanmei> "No," she said firmly. "Absolutely not? Anyway, you'd have to pass inspection from his own daughter, and her standards are impossible."
[14:39] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu stared at Yanmei.-
[14:40] <Minaplo> ["I want you to be honest with me. If it were up to you, you'd prefer I stayed single, correct?"]
[14:44] <Yanmei> Blindsided by chagrin once again. She tried to collect herself. "I… don't know."
[14:49] <Minaplo> ["Just tell me everything you feel about it."]
[14:58] <Yanmei> "…" She straightened up. "I want you to be happy? So it's important to know what you want to do instead."
[15:00] <Minaplo> ["Is that everything?"]
[15:03] <Yanmei> "Yes," she said firmly. "Yes, of course?"
[15:03] <Minaplo> ["Then I want you to fully embrace Nana as a sister."]
[15:06] <Yanmei> Yanmei froze up suddenly. "Nana?"
[15:06] <Minaplo> ["Yes. You said that you want me to be happy? This would make me very happy."]
[15:08] * Yanmei was silent for a long time, neither moving nor talking.
[15:08] <Minaplo> ["I did say you should tell me everything. Why is it so hard to make you open up to me?"]
[15:11] <Yanmei> "…you won't like it," she said finally.
[15:11] <Minaplo> ["I prefer you to share than not."]
[15:13] * Yanmei scrutinized her carefully before making her move. "You're sure?"
[15:18] <Minaplo> ["I am."]
[15:24] <Yanmei> "I don't want a sister? And… someone you're interested in? In that way? I just don't know."
[15:27] <Minaplo> ["But why? Why don't you want a sister?"]
[15:30] <Yanmei> "I'd rather have a mother," she muttered.
[15:33] <Minaplo> ["You can have both!"]
[15:35] * Yanmei simply gave a small, wry smile.
[15:37] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu stared.-
[15:38] <Minaplo> [And then quite suddenly she brought her fist down on the table with such force that all the plates shook. "Stop playing around! Tell me how you feel properly!"-
[15:38] <Minaplo> ["NOW!"]
[15:46] * Yanmei had drawn her hands away from the table, her eyes wide in alarm. That was worse than a slap across the cheek. Her mother, usually so calm and controlled…
[15:48] <Minaplo> [Yanmei's silence only served to make Mingzhu furious. She got to her feet, now seeming to tower over Yanmei, made taller by her wrath.-
[15:50] <Minaplo> ["Lies and secrets, lies and secrets, that's all I ever receive these days." She said bitterly, starting to pace back and forth. "Conspiracies behind the scenes, plots- not even my family is any different."-
[15:51] <Minaplo> ["Your boyfriend, Isaiah, your school grade scores- why am I always the last to find out?! Why do you always hide things from me? I can't even get you to tell me how you feel about things! Just more lies and secrets! Trying to get you to open up even a little is like pulling teeth, Yanmei!"-
[15:51] <Minaplo> ["Have you ever trusted me, even a little?"]
[15:58] <Yanmei> "Of course…" She swallowed hard, fighting against something. "Of course I have? I'm not plotting or… or lying! I just don't want you to be happy with me!"
[15:58] <Yanmei> ^want you to be
[16:15] <Minaplo> ["Liar! Liar!" Mingzhu's pacing became faster, more frantic. "You're lying again! I didn't try to raise you to be a liar, but that's what you've become! You lie to your commander, your friends, your fiance, your mother- is there anyone you aren't constantly lying to?"-
[16:16] <Minaplo> ["Disgusting! Disgusting daughter! I can't believe I gave birth to so many endless lies!"]
[16:21] <Yanmei> "Don't say that!" She was halfway out of her own chair, her voice cracking. "You don't -understand-! Mom, please…!"
[16:21] <Minaplo> ["How can I ever understand when you refuse to ever, ever tell me anything!?"]
[16:27] * Yanmei tried a deep breath, but that wasn't working to calm her at all. She grasped at things like a tottering man flailing on the edge of a cliff. The truth… "I don't want a sister," she repeated again, shakily. "I won't share you with her or anyone else. I refuse!"
[16:30] <Minaplo> ["Is that how you really feel?"]
[16:35] <Yanmei> "Yes!" She saw and felt it again - the stirring of raw anger and violence she'd felt when she'd spotted Nana snuggling up against her mom so easily. "B-but the Major said that I should keep an open mind? I didn't know what to do…"
[16:36] <Minaplo> ["…"-
[16:36] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu shook her head, and she walked- a little unsteadily, it looked like- over to the edge of her bed. She sat down, her hands shaking as the adrenaline pumped through her system.-
[16:37] <Minaplo> ["Why? Why didn't you just say that in the first place…?" The anger was bleeding out of her voice.]
[16:46] <Yanmei> "Because it's selfish? It's terrible, and it's harmful to you both? There's no way you'd approve of it! But hiding it won't work either." She wiped at her eyes a little angrily herself. "So I lose either way."
[16:51] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu shuddered, wiping at her own eyes.-
[16:52] <Minaplo> ["I didn't know you cared about me that much." She murmured. "You always seemed so distant…"]
[16:54] <Yanmei> "Always. A-all I ever wanted to do was impress you."
[16:57] <Minaplo> ["…" Mingzhu shook her head. "Maybe I read too much into it. But it didn't feel like that. I left you with your uncle, and you seemed happy there- I didn't really get to know you as a baby, and you never really knew me, so at the start you were distant to me."-
[17:01] <Minaplo> ["And then we moved and I was employed in Beijing, and you kept growing up, and I was waiting for… Something. Waiting for you to complain about my hours, complain about how I was never around, want or -demand- me to be home more, like kids do… And you never did."-
[17:02] <Minaplo> ["I started to think more that you preferred it that way, preferred the freedom, maybe, felt like you were better by yourself. You never seemed to need me like a child should. You barely even hugged me or showed me a child's affection."-
[17:03] <Minaplo> ["And then you got older and reached high school, and I expected that this would be the moment where you would open up, start treating me like a mother, but you never did. High school should bring you closer to your family, but you never confided in me, hardly talked about your friends or anything. Hid scores and your boyfriend. It only made me feel like you didn't need me."-
[17:04] <Minaplo> ["Then NERV made its offer, and you didn't complain. You never even whined about it, never showed any real inclination that staying with me would've been preferable. And that's when I seemed to know that you were never really going to be close to me, nevermind how much I might've wanted it."-
[17:05] <Minaplo> ["So I left you alone. I thought about you in a different way. Tried to think of you as a colleague or somesuch and not a daughter. And again you never complained. Never any phone messages tearfully begging to be brought home. None of that."-
[17:06] <Minaplo> ["And even in your worst moments, like that time in Tokyo, you were always much more reserved around me than you were with anyone else, like I wasn't really a mother…"-
[17:07] <Minaplo> ["It took me being nearly killed-" She reached up and touched the burn scars on her face- "Before I felt you opening up, but even then I started to think that you were just scared, and before long you'd be your typical out-of-reach self."-
[17:09] <Minaplo> ["Can you blame me for my actions? Nana isn't like that at all. She's warm and is honest, is always confessing how she feels about things, is always open. She's affectionate. I felt needed. I like being needed, and you never made me feel like you really needed me at all."]
01[23:15] <Yanmei> Nana again! Her anger was lessened this time, if only because praises for the girl rode on a wave of secrets and parental pain that was far more important. -
01[23:20] <Yanmei> "So that's the sort of daughter you wanted…" Her voice was wounded. "Someone who cries openly when you leave instead of restraining herself? It hurt, you know. It always hurt. I hated that empty apartment, and I hated moving to France. Do you know why I endured it?"
[23:22] <Minaplo> ["No, I don't…"]
01[23:32] <Yanmei> "Because I thought I had already lost to that job you seemed to love so much. It was always taking you away from me, and it was so, so important? It brought food to the table, and changed the world, but more importantly it made you feel… alive, I thought. So I became the strong daughter who never cried when you left, because I thought it would make you feel guilty. -
03[23:33] * Zack is now known as ZackDinner
01[23:37] <Yanmei> "It's not like I ever gave up completely? Being strong meant you could be proud of me, so I tried to be perfect. I hid my bad grades and showed you the good ones when you were around to see them. I kept up the apartment and tried to find other ways to feel less lonely so that I wouldn't be bothering you. I joined the track team. I made friends and trained constantly. I got a boyfriend. I built a life. -
01[23:42] <Yanmei> "And when I was picked to go to France it all fell apart. But I never complained even once because of the look of pride on your face when you found out that I was selected. It was what you wanted. I never figured out why until later, but I could pick out that much. And if that's what you wanted, there's no way I would cry and complain…"
[23:49] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu was quiet. She didn't speak, didn't even seem to breathe… And then…-
[23:50] <Minaplo> ["I thought… That was what you wanted. I…"-
[23:50] <Minaplo> ["I just wanted my daughter…"-
[23:50] <Minaplo> [And she bowed her head, covering her face with her hands- and began to sob.]
01[23:56] <Yanmei> She had only seen her mother cry like this one other time in her life. This time it was less jarring and there were tears welling up on her own eyes. She crossed the gap between them, sitting down on the bed next to her. Then, gingerly, as if she was afraid of how she might react, she put her arms around her.
03[23:58] * ZackDinner is now known as Zack
Session Time: Sat Nov 16 00:00:00 2013
[00:00] <Minaplo> [And Mingzhu leaned against her, her sobbing becoming louder and more painful…]
06[00:06] * Yanmei tried to say something to her, but sound of Mingzhu's sobs and the ache in her own throat mangled the effort. Eventually, she broke down too - not as loudly, perhaps, but with deep shuddering, her hands tightening on her mother's jacket.
[00:09] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu shakily tore her hands away from her face, embracing Yanmei more tightly, burying her face against Yanmei's shoulder.]
01[00:21] <Yanmei> It was a long time until Yanmei's eyes were dry again - and even then, only relatively. Her mascara, still damp, made her look more raccoon than soldier. Exhausted, she'd let her hands drop a little, but one of them was still weakly clinging to the fabric of that jacket. "'m sorry," she croaked quietly. "I won't lie to you anymore"
[00:23] <Minaplo> ["I'm… Sorry too." Murmured Mingzhu in return.-
[00:24] <Minaplo> ["You… You only had to ask if you wanted my affection, blossom."]
01[00:25] <Yanmei> "The same was true for you?" She chuckled tiredly. "God, we're ridiculous, aren't we?"
[00:26] <Minaplo> ["A little." She sniffled, pulling away a little. "I… I can understand where you're coming from a bit better now. I didn't think you'd care that much about Nana, b-but you saw her enjoying all the things you yourself wanted…"]
01[00:28] <Yanmei> "I know it's not her fault… but I wanted to hurt her for that. Badly."
[00:37] <Minaplo> ["Do you still want to hurt her?"]
06[00:38] * Yanmei considered that quietly for a little bit. -
01[00:40] <Yanmei> "Not as much. I think… because maybe you won't forget about me, even when she's around?"
[00:41] <Minaplo> ["I'll never forget about you, blossom." Murmured Mingzhu. She took one of Yanmei's hands and squeezed it. "Things will… Will be different now. In- In fact…"]
06[00:43] * Yanmei looked up at her questioningly, enjoying the warmth from her hand.
[00:44] <Minaplo> ["Do… Do you want to stay with me tonight?" She asked, almost shyly. "This is a big bed, I mean…"]
06[00:47] * Yanmei blinked, and then nodded happily. "Ok. I'll call Isaiah and let him know."
[00:49] <Minaplo> ["Alright." She smiled.-
[00:49] <Minaplo> ["… Our dinner's probably gone cold. So…"-
[00:50] <Minaplo> ["… Why don't we just have the waiters clear it off, and we'll order a whole new dinner? And we can watch a movie from bed while we eat, too."]
01[00:55] <Yanmei> "That sounds fun!" She stood up, preparing to make the arrangements. She paused though, just a step or two away, and smiled over her shoulder at her. "I know I said this before… but I'm glad you're here, Mom."
[00:56] <Minaplo> [Mingzhu smiled, and even though her eyes were blotchy and red with tears, it was a genuine smile. "I'm glad I am too, blossom."]

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