She Said Goodnight

[23:00] <Isaiah> [A few days had passed since Yanmei'd witnessed Isaiah waking up. Since then the boy had made strides in recovering. He wasn't able to walk yet, and he still slept a lot of the day away. But he'd been moved to a normal room now, taken off life support; he could speak coherently and at length (somewhat); and most importantly, Yanmei had access to him freely. In fact, a bed had been made up
[23:00] <Isaiah> for her in the corner of the room.]
[23:04] <Yanmei> At first, got even less than minimal use. But at the moment, the girl was finding herself blearily coming to on top of it. Funny… she hadn't remembered climbing onto it or dozing off, and yet here she was, her hair and clothes rumpled, and her shoes placed neatly beside the bed. She rubbed her eyes, and struggled to sit up.
[23:05] * Isaiah was sitting up a little, reaching out for a food tray. Unfortunately sitting up any higher was painful, and the tray was just out of reach. Damned nurses.
[23:07] <Yanmei> "Nmphm." Even in this half-awake state, she knew what had to be done. She managed to climb to her feet, and padded over, and pushed the tray closer to him. "Here."
[23:09] <Isaiah> "!" He looked over at her, smiling a little. "You're awake!"
[23:11] <Yanmei> "Yeah." She sat down on the edge of his bed. Her limbs felt as if they were made of heavy granite. "How long was I out for? Not too long, I hope…"
[23:12] <Isaiah> "About five or six hours."
[23:13] <Yanmei> "That's a long time!"
[23:15] * Isaiah looked sheepish. "You looked like you needed it…"
[23:22] <Yanmei> "I…" Her shoulders slumped a little. "When she left, Mom told me to get some rest. I don't think I've been listening…"
[23:22] * Isaiah frowned slightly, looking concerned. "… Have you been watching over me the entire time?"
[23:25] <Yanmei> "I messed up last time. But if someone dangerous appeared, I thought I could keep them from hurting you again."
[23:26] <Isaiah> "…" He smiled, a little bashfully. "I feel -good- hearing that."
[23:29] * Yanmei gave a small smile back, but she seemed to be lacking her old energy. Maybe she needed a little more time to wake up fully.
[23:29] * Isaiah beckoned her a little closer.
[23:30] <Yanmei> "…?" Curious, she scooted closer to him.
[23:33] * Isaiah reached out to give her a hug, but just like the food tray it'd be something she'd have to help with.
[23:35] * Yanmei was happy to oblige with that. She leaned down and wrapped her arms around him. "I don't think I'm very good at this," she confessed.
[23:41] <Isaiah> "At hugs?" He teased, hugging her back. He felt wonderfully warm and soothing- especially compared to how he'd felt after being shot. "Or looking after me? Either way, I think you're doing just fine~"
[23:44] <Yanmei> For a moment, she thought she would cry. Instead, she just held him tighter, amazed at his warmth, at how alive he felt. "That's not true. The… the taking care of you part, anyway. I think I'm getting better at hugs."
[23:48] <Isaiah> "Hehehe." He seemed… Just happy to be alive. "I wouldn't want anyone else to look after me. I mean that."
[23:54] <Yanmei> "Isaiah? Have you ever felt like it was your fault that something awful happened to someone? That's how I've been feeling. Ever since the shooting… no, well before that."
[23:56] <Isaiah> "…" He looked down at his food tray. "… Yeah…"
[23:58] <Yanmei> "…yeah?" Pulling back, she settled on the bed again. She's wrecked the mood. But this was supposed to be a serious topic.
[23:59] <Yanmei> ^She'd
Session Time: Fri Sep 02 00:00:00 2011
[00:00] <Isaiah> "My mom…"
[00:03] <Yanmei> "…" She wanted to put her arms around him again, but she abstained. This was something that she needed to talk to him about too. "That can't be possible… you were little when she died, right?"
[00:06] <Isaiah> "It… It's a long story, but I was pretty young. Seven or eight or so."
[00:07] * Yanmei nodded. Still a little kid!
[00:10] <Isaiah> "Dad was at work, and mum had stopped working for a while. I didn't know why, I was just happy that she was home."
[00:12] <Yanmei> "Stopped working? That must have been nice." She felt a little twinge of envy, incredibly enough.
[00:21] <Isaiah> "It was." Said Isaiah. "I really loved my mom, and having her home made me really happy." He smiled, but it was a wistful smile.-
[00:23] <Isaiah> "One day, though, she was really tired. She asked me to go make her a special drink."
[00:39] <Yanmei> "What sort of drink?"
[00:48] <Isaiah> "I-I don't remember." Said Isaiah. "It might've been something medicinal. I think it smelt a little of alcohol…"
[00:52] <Yanmei> Or something from Dr Gabriel's liquor cabinent. But he hadn't been like that back then, and even if he had been, it was an inappropriate remark. "So you made her this drink and gave it to her. Did she like it?"
[00:54] * Isaiah nods. "She did. She started drinking it, and I went off by myself to do something else…"
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[00:58] * Yanmei nodded quietly, to show that she was keeping up.
[01:00] <Isaiah> "… I heard a crash. And I rushed back out to where she’d been, and… And she was on the floor."
[01:01] * Yanmei started to look anxious at that. "…she was sick?"
[01:03] * Isaiah nodded. "She was. Before… That's why she was away from work. But as it turns out, after she'd had that drink, she'd had a heart attack." Said Isaiah. His head was bowed. "I tried to help… But… All the first aid techniques I'd learned, they just… Fled my mind, I just locked up. I couldn't do anything except call for an ambulance."
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[01:13] * Yanmei was quiet for a little while. She could guess what happened next. EIther the ambulance was too late, or the heart attack was too strong. "Isaiah. It's not your fault."
[01:18] <Isaiah> "I know." Murmured Isaiah.-
[01:19] <Isaiah> "But… I blamed myself. I don't know whether it was the drink, or… Or something else. But for the longest time I…" His hands clenched a little.-
[01:19] <Isaiah> "S-Sometimes, when dad was really angry or depressed, he used to tell me I killed her…"
[01:21] <Yanmei> A flash of anger! But she pushed it back down. There was a time and a place to dwell on the failures of Dr Gabriel. "What… what changed?"
[01:23] <Isaiah> "I met someone." Mumbled Isaiah quietly. "Who wouldn't let me hate myself anymore, who thought I was strong- someone -really- precious, who made me believe that even if I am to blame, or if I'm not, it doesn't matter so long as I can protect the people I love right now."
[01:25] * Yanmei looked stunned. "Isaiah…" She collected herself slowly, trying to think of what to say.
[01:31] * Isaiah looked up at her. "Every day that went by I used to dread, but now I look forward to them. So long as I can love and protect you- so long as you love and protect me- my life feels good- it feels- it feels worthy again. I…" The boy started to cry, his words dissolving in amidst the tears.
[01:37] * Yanmei leaned over and held him again, gently. She wanted to cry too, but she was forcing herself not to. "I'm s-such a fool," she whispered.
[01:38] * Isaiah fell into the embrace. "W-why…?"
[01:41] <Yanmei> "I…I screwed up so much, and you've been in pain because of it. So I… started to think that I was a terrible person." She shook her head feverishly. "I won't think that way any more! How could I? I…"
[01:42] <Isaiah> "Y-You're not." Mumbled Isaiah. "Y-You haven't screwed up. Y-you're a wonderful…"
[01:46] <Yanmei> "I -have- screwed up! Because I could never protect you. Because I was useless in the park. I stayed awake all this time b-because I didn't want to be useless again. Because I was sure that something awful would happen if I did sleep or step away, and I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if it did."-
[01:47] <Yanmei> "S-so much blood," she shuddered.
[01:49] * Isaiah pulled her a little closer, held her a little tighter.-
[01:49] <Isaiah> "I forgive you." He whispered. "I'll always forgive you."
[01:54] <Yanmei> "Thank you…" Her voice dropped back into a whisper, a croak. She couldn't relax enough to stop shaking completely, but she did feel… less miserable. "Isaiah?"
[01:55] <Isaiah> "Yeah…?"
[01:56] <Yanmei> "Should I sleep a little bit longer? I want to, but…"
[01:56] <Isaiah> "… But you don't want to leave me?"
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[02:01] <Yanmei> "Yes, that's right." How pathetic it sounded… but she couldn't help it. "I don't want to leave. I'm afraid to leave!"
[02:06] <Isaiah> "… Oh, Yanmei…" Murmured Isaiah. "I'm alright. I won't be hurt. But… If you're scared, you should stay with me, and I'll make sure you're not scared anymore. Alright?"
[02:10] <Yanmei> "R-right. Okay." She nodded a few times, quickly. "I'll stay with you. I'll trust you to lend me a hand… and not get hurt."
[02:12] <Isaiah> "I promise." He shifted over a little. "Why don't you lay here next to me? Like we did at the last hospital. That way you can sleep later, and watch over me at the same time."
[02:20] <Yanmei> "I think I can do that." She eyed the IV still attached to his arm. The delicate connections between himself and a nearby machine that was monitoring his vitals. Very carefully, she began to lie down, avoiding contact with any of them.
[02:22] * Isaiah made room- it was easier for him to push the IV away out of her path. Once she'd successfully lay down without accidentally ruining his drip or anything, he rested his head against her shoulder, holding her.-
[02:22] <Isaiah> "I should've realised you were torturing yourself like this earlier." He mumbled. "I could've shown you…"
[02:27] <Yanmei> "I wish I was stronger," she mumbled back. Her eyes were still open, but they were starting to flicker. "I'm sorry."
[02:28] <Isaiah> "Shh. It's not your fault." He said soothingly, but he was starting to fade a little too. "Promise me something?"
[02:29] <Yanmei> "Yeah?"
[02:31] <Isaiah> "Promise me that…" He snuggled a little closer. "You tell me about these things when they happen in the future. And… Don't ever do something for my sake because you feel guilty or because you feel like you owe me." He murmured. "Do it because you want to."
[02:36] <Yanmei> "Yes." Her eyelids were starting to close. Damn, he was comforting. Relaxing… "I p-promise."
[02:41] <Isaiah> "It's funny. Even though I was in pain, and it was dark… I knew I was going to live through this. I could hear your voice the entire time." He looked over at her. Poor Yanyan… A gentle kiss on the cheek. "Goodnight, Yanmei."
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[02:49] <Yanmei> How would his mother see him now, she wondered. All grown up and full of strength. Was this the same Isaiah from before? There were times when she couldn't believe it either. But then her final view of him blurred and gave way to darkness as her eyes shut completely. Goodnight…
[02:52] * Isaiah smiled. And before long, he too joined her in sleep.

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