She Said I Am Ayanami Rei

[20:04] <Ayanami‘Rei> [It was the morning of the 25th of December. Sept’s chest had finally started to hurt at a tolerable level, and the sedative on his arms was being lessened. The door was locked, of course. He was alone.]
[20:09] <Sept> Sera was anxious. How many days had he spent in that room now? He had been eyeing the door long enough today, hoping for someone to open it. He would have to surrender the staring contest if he wanted to get somewhere. "Hello? Is anyone there?"
[20:13] <Ayanami‘Rei> [Silence.]
[20:19] <Sept> This was stupid. Was this his doing? He was surely trying to get to him even now. Sera tried to see if he could safely disentangle himself from any drips and other medical equipment he’d been putting up with so far.
[20:21] <Ayanami‘Rei> [… And then the door opened.]
[20:22] * Sept froze. There was no covering what he’d been doing. Slowly, he raised his head to face the door. "Finally…"
[20:23] * Ayanami‘Rei entered. A girl with medium-length light blue hair framing her face… Red eyes. A long, simple blue dress. She stared at him.
[20:26] <Sept> Sera’s body flinched as if to retreat, but… He was already against the wall, wasn't he? And still half-entangled in the wiring. "What are you doing here? Did Gendo send you?" he barked.
[20:38] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Father did not. I came myself."
[20:41] * SyntaxTerror frowned, busying his hands with his escape while glancing back at Rei occasionally. "Why?"
[20:47] <Ayanami`Rei> "I wished to see how you were going, Sera." Said Rei. She pulled a chilled canister out of a bag, its strap worn around her shoulder. "Tsuchin said you liked milkshakes. Please accept the milkshake."
[20:53] * Sept was distracted by TASTY MILKSHAKE for a moment, but soon returned to digging at the proverbial wall with the proverbial spoon. "I’m a bit busy here. They're keeping me here for no reason when I have better things to do is how I'm doing. You're…" He stopped to look at the girl. There was anger in his expression, but also something else. He was hesitating. He continued with the
[20:53] * Sept fiddling. "If you came here for small talk, we can do that later. Or was there something else?"
[20:56] <Ayanami‘Rei> "… I wanted to apologise for breaking your rib." Said Rei. She looked down at the doctor’s chart at the end of the bed. "And fracturing four others." She added.
[20:59] * Sept stopped, and this time settled into a more comfortable sitting position to properly face Rei. "Why?" he demanded.
[20:59] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Because I hurt you."
[21:00] <Sept> "Why?"
[21:02] <Ayanami`Rei> "Because you attacked Roku."
[21:05] <Sept> "Who is Roku?" Sera’s expression was mostly neutral, except for the very well veiled scorn.
[21:09] <Ayanami‘Rei> "The Pilot you attacked."
[21:11] <Sept> "She is not a pilot. And neither are you. Why was I to be killed for attacking Roku?"
[21:13] <Ayanami`Rei> "Because you attacked her."
[21:16] <Sept> "Why is Roku more valuable than me? Even if we assume she is a capable pilot, she does not have a unit. Is that worth killing me over?"
[21:18] <Ayanami`Rei> "You attacked her." Said Rei. "You were a threat… We did not kill you, either way. We did not want to."
[21:22] <Sept> "Bullshit. Yui ordered you to stop, and you… you obeyed like dogs. You didn’t 'want' anything, and I don't think you do now."
[21:22] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Yes, I do…"
[21:24] <Sept> "Yeah. You just want to fulfill your orders. Who are you?"
[21:26] <Ayanami`Rei> "I am Ikari Rei." She said quietly. She sat down on one of the chairs. "I am six years old. I attend Tokyo-2 Municipal. I have the highest grades in my class. I -am- Ikari Rei."
[21:31] * Sept breathed heavily. "What happened in Paris-2 on the 10th of September? Let me start. It was a Thursday. Rei was at a shopping mall."
[21:32] <Ayanami`Rei> "I am familiar with the events." Said Rei. "You lost someone important that day, too."
[21:34] <Sept> "You know nothing. Rei died in the shopping mall! Didn’t she?"
[21:34] <Ayanami‘Rei> "… She did not."
[21:35] <Sept> "Rei Ikari is dead! Rei Ikari was never capable of having a conversation with me!"
[21:36] <Ayanami`Rei> "…" Rei looked away. "Then who am I?"
[21:44] * Sept smiled just a little. "You are someone who remembers her. In great detail, probably. You are someone who has to carry all of her mistakes and burdens, but who has to start everything else from scratch. You are not the child of Gendo and Yui Ikari. The life they gave to Rei Ikari is -not- yours. You owe them nothing. Who and what do you want to be?"
[21:50] <Ayanami`Rei> "I…" Rei didn’t know, but she fumbled for what she knew she wanted right then and there. "I want to be someone who doesn't make Zaizai cry by existing."
[21:54] * Sept stared. "Forget about him for now. You d-don't need to worry about that. Is there something you -want- to do? Longer term."
[21:57] <Ayanami‘Rei> "I…" Rei stared down at the floor, perplexed. She didn’t know. In desperation she started reaching for childhood dreams. "I want to see Niagara Falls."
[22:00] * Sept sighed. "You don't need to let go of that. But it's not a reason. Let me skip to my point. Do you want to pilot an Evangelion?"
[22:00] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Yes."
[22:02] <Sept> "At this rate, it’s certainly something you'd be able to do. Why do you want to be a pilot?"
[22:03] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Because…" Because Meimei pilots, and when I grow up I want to be just like her. Because I was meant to pilot. Because… "Because I want to live."
[22:12] <Sept> "After you t-tried to kill me… what were you feeling?"
[22:13] <Ayanami`Rei> "Pity."
[22:14] <Sept> "Don’t play with me. Those were not words of pity."
[22:15] <Ayanami‘Rei> "I felt pity." Said Rei with certainly. "Also confusion. You were trying to kill… Me, and I did not know why, but you said… You were doing it for me. I felt… As though you shouldn’t have felt as though you were worthless because you failed."
[22:24] <Sept> "I was trying to kill… the others. They are not you. You've been tampered with the least. I've heard near-death experiences change people's perspectives. You should still have hope of making a life for yourself. The others don't have that. They have no reason to believe they aren't Rei Ikari. Do you understand?"
[22:26] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Hai."
[22:31] <Sept> "It’s important that they don't think that. And if they do, it's important they -never- enter society. They'd cause a lot of pain to Rei Ikari's friends."
[22:32] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Hai." Said Rei. "… They are still worthy of love."
[22:44] <Sept> "…" He’d missed his chance. He couldn't deny that. "I'm sure they are." They'd be dealt with. Aline would do it. "You're not one of us. But if you want to be, you'll have to act like it."
[22:45] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Act like it?"
[22:53] <Sept> "You have time. Use it to figure out who you are. Um. And what it is that makes you -not- Rei Ikari, in every way. I think it’ll be confusing and hard, but… you need to have your own reasons. The others won't be able to do that. That's why they can't pilot."
[22:54] * Ayanami‘Rei blinked. "But they can pilot." She said.
[22:58] <Sept> "What will they do when they’re cut off from everyone else? They could be controlled by Angels in a moment."
[23:00] <Ayanami‘Rei> "No, they couldn’t."
[23:06] <Sept> "Why? They have nothing to fight for. If they get that same love from an Angel..?"
[23:08] <Ayanami‘Rei> "We hate Angels." Said Rei. "More than anything."
[23:12] <Sept> "Hmmh. Fine, whatever. Can you promise me one thing?"
[23:13] <Ayanami`Rei> "What?"
[23:13] <Sept> "Please don’t break or fracture my ribs again. Okay?"
[23:14] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Hai." Rei stood up and walked over to the side of the bed. She reached over and kissed Sept on the forehead. "Please forgive me."
[23:19] * Sept retreated just a bit on the bed as she approached and had to fight a strong urge to do something more. Sera looked at the girl for a while and took a few deep breaths. "I forgive you for breaking and fracturing my ribs and I accept your milkshake."
[23:20] * Ayanami`Rei held out the chilled canister. "I brought a straw." She took out a straw. "In case you cannot move your arms. Do you need me to help you drink your milkshake, Sera-san?"
[23:26] <Sept> "I think I can hold a straw in place." Sera carefully reached out his hands, holding the container from the bottom. Extremity control and grip were still pending NERV approval. He placed the straw in his mouth and took a sip oh god first sugary item after several days of drips oh god oh man.-
[23:27] <Sept> "And my name is Sera. Nice to meet you, ..?"
[23:29] <Ayanami`Rei> "Rei." Said Rei. "I am Ayanami Rei. I am 15 years old. One day I will save the world."
[23:34] * Sept nodded with a light smile. "Nice to meet you, Rei Ayanami. Maybe I can introduce you to some of my friends later. But not today. What is it, the 24th already? We spent a lot of time with this apology stuff. If you break a part of me, we’ll have to go through all of it again." A stern look.
[23:34] <Ayanami‘Rei> "Today is the 25th." Said Rei. She bowed. "I am sorry for breaking you."
[23:37] <Sept> "Haha, it’s alri-" Sera froze. "R-Rei. Could you… help me, um. Check out? I-I'll need my clothes and belongings and… I'll need to get off these machines. Please?"
[23:38] <Ayanami‘Rei> "You could hurt yourself."
[23:40] <Sept> "I-I’m used to it, I'm hospitalised all the time in Paris, I know when I can't cause anything permanent, could you do it, -please-?"
[23:41] <Ayanami`Rei> "Hai."-
[23:41] * Ayanami`Rei started to move, unplugging some of the machines quickly and carefully removing the tubes and drips and God knows what else NERV put in Sept to keep him under control.
[23:41] <Ayanami`Rei> To fix his ribs*
[23:50] * Sept steadied himself on the edge of the bed, and -very carefully- lowered himself to touch the floor. He stood, somewhat shakily, but not falling. He wobbled his way out, supporting himself on Rei just as long as there was no one else in sight.

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